My School of Thoughts (On Life and Essential Oils!)

I wish I am pregnant. Seriously, I do. But upon realizing it, I think Allah has yet to grant it because... Cikcha still want to be pampered I am still young and He wants me to know that I am fertile He wants me to remember Him first before He can give that gift Allah does not want me to be so eager to have another baby and to leave the one I have He does not want me to be proud of myself for being a healthy pregnant lady than that someone And He does not want me to feel left out if the attention is given more to that someone So, I have said it. No, this is not about being selfish or sorry. This is just to cleanse myself before the new beginning. Cant wait to start it. Thanks Allah, for remembering me.

Vouchers have been coming to my house to pay for a visit. These are the moments that I cherished most. They really cheer me up, in a way, some may not understand. The title "vouchers" was given back in 2007, just before I got married. "Kita gi Perhentian la.." "Taknakla. I nak g Langkawi." "Eh, Langkawi tak best la." So, end up, the supposedly class trip was then just a trip for the six of of us: Uns, Elle, Ik, Che T, Nurul and myself. Secara senyap2 sebab byk sgt itu-ini, thus, we thought we better off first then we can share the experience. Rupanya, ada yang menghidu our secret plan - which was done because we cannot stand the hype for a trip and waiting for a conclusion from almost 30 of us in class was taking too long. And yes, we did mention that we got vouchers for the stay, thus the whole class cannot be possibly coming together. "Oh, jadi korang ni group Vouchers la ye..." Erk... yeah. bolehlah. terima dengan redha je ...

Raya datang lagi! Walaupun we ols tak posa penuh lagi kali ni, but kehangatan Raya tu dah terasa tau. 1. Ada umah sewa sendiri untuk dihiaskan... seronok gile... 2. Cikcha dah pandai cakap selamat hari raya... So, phm2 je laa... heheheh 3. Baju raya byk nak mampos... masa bila nak pkai ntah... ni gara2 baju pi antar awal2 tapi tak amik smpai skrg... merasa byr sekaligus! 4. Kuih raya yang diorder dah mula smpai! 5. Baju raya Cikcha nampak sungguh cute. Sekian.

Yes, I have been thinking too much lately. Beginning with a very negative thoughts, and now, I am feeling much better and positive. No wonder la I was diagnosed with ectopic pregnancy in Dec 2010... Cause I have to help my brother for his wedding... Cause I have give more attention to Cikcha... And, no wonder la I was miscarriage in Aug 2011... Cause I am going for a company trip this Oct 2011 and it is a journey on a bus.. Cause I am going for a treasure hunt game in May 2012... Cause I am going for another honeymoon in Dec 2011... To end with, I should be thankful for these 2 occasions in my life (ectopic and miscarriage) happened to me for there are: still many husbands and wives who have yet to get a child - cannot imagine if these happen to them (the wife)  mothers out there who have been wanting to have a child but Allah has yet to give them the pleasure mothers who have been given the opportunity to take care of her child, temporarily... and mothers who h...

Salam all... So you know what happened to me in my earlier entry right? The moment i said i have accepted the faith and redha dengan segalanya, beban mula terasa. It's easier said than done, actually. But of course, I have to. Having to berpantang kali kedua and WITHOUT a baby is definitely stressful moment. I thought the ectopic experience will be the last, yet it isn't. So, what should I do for pantang this time? I read through numerous websites in search for help and assistance. Many experts mentioned about: Just take care of yourself and drink plenty of water. No jamu and what nots for it will make you difficult to conceive again. Tho so, there are also opinions to still berpantang because we still 'deliver', in a different way. MIL said no makanan sejuk such as sayur-sayur sejuk. Icy drinks are a no-no. Drink lots of air suam. Kurma, kismis, sawi and milk really help (but hot milk, not HL ya). You will be staying at home doing nothing for real. Angkat ...

My last entry was back in February 2011. I just can't find the time to update anymore and FB has taken charge recently. Those who are in my FB list will know my day-to-day update. I just dont know how to start writing this entry without a single tear in my eyes. Let's begin with this... I was confirmed pregnant in July 2011. Due to my ectopic case, i hurried to a nearby clinic and scan. Glad the baby's in the right place. Syukur. Alhamdulillah. Praised to Allah. I continued consuming the normal vitamins, taking very good care of myself. Since the baby's in the right place, i felt happier and not so scared (ectopic case occurance is 40%). BUT there was no bad morning sickness. NOT at all. And i thought all was normal. yeah, each pregnancy is different. 28th July 2011 - I went to another clinic just to start my antenatal checkup. By then, I was about 7weeks. The baby's heartbeat was good. there was nothing to worry about. I felt so motherly th...